Tales of a Wannabe

the winding path of an aspiring singer

New Quote December 14, 2009

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Ok, so I like quotes. :) I am in the university library working on a project on contemporary American art song, and I came across this quote in one of my CD cases:

“As a performer I think composers are the cat’s meow. With pitches and rhythm (and often words), they create an incredible world that a performer can enter and respond to so that those who listen to this ‘music’ can open doors to worlds in their own imaginations that never existed before.” –Tom Bogdan

I am not overly impressed by this guy’s singing (I got the CD for his recording of Hundley’s “Come Ready and See Me”), but I like the quote. I’ve always heard books described this way… doorways to amazing new worlds that we can never visit in reality. I like music being described that way too. It seems apropriate.

 

Ah, finals, how do I love thee? Let me count the ways… umm… umm…………. December 11, 2009

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Actually, finals don’t scare me like they used to. Finals week actually sounds relaxing after the last month or so. :/ No, it’s not finals that stress me out… It’s the week BEFORE finals week, and I have the cold to prove it! I just finished my DMA paper and emailed it to the prof… All 59 pages of it. I think that’s my record so far, although there are far more tables and such at the end than actual writing. Yesterday I had my final singing exam, and I was sick for it. Lovely! Luckily I only had to sing one song, but I still screwed it up. Go me. Before that it was a discography for my vocal literature class, and before that the workbook and take-home test for Italian. (Totally zoned out on the chapter, so I had no idea what I was doing.) Before that the concerto competition, and before that the opera performances, and it goes on and on…

Anyhow… It’s been stressful. Teaching with this cold was hell yesterday. In fact, I was told that I looked like hell several times, twice by professors. I might have been offended, but it was true. :( I really did look like hell. I feel (and look) slightly better today. At least my eyes aren’t as red and puffy.

So now I don’t have anything due till Wednesday… I’ve got a test in German, a take-home final in Italian, and a presentation to give in vocal lit about contemporary American art song. And then on Thursday I get to give a final. Thursday night is Songbird’s birthday/Christmas party. So I’ve still got a lot to do, but no classes to get in the way. There is light at the end of this tunnel!

Right now I am going to go watch a movie and let my sickly little self rest a while. :)

 

To DMA or not to DMA? December 5, 2009

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My voice teacher assigned me a research project: pick 4 DMA programs, find out as much as I can about them, and then write a 20 page paper about them. So far I’ve got 20+ pages of appendices and I’ve written 3 pages about CU-Boulder. I’ve got a long ways to go…

 

I almost died today December 3, 2009

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Today as I was driving home from work (an hour drive along a busy freeway), a very determined jackass tried to run me off the road. He passed me, but didn’t have enough room. His massive van pushed my little bitty car half way into the median (luckily just a dirt median). I’m ok, but rather shaken up. I’ve never been so close to actually having a car accident.

 

Great Quote December 2, 2009

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“If you get put on Santa’s naughty list for having a large carbon footprint, does he still give you coal in your stocking?”

Thank you Morosoph! (about whom a professor once commented, “For the sarcastic, heresy comes much easier.”) :)

FYI: A morosoph is a learned fool, and it is a nickname of his own choosing. :)

 

Quick Post December 2, 2009

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1. I have far too much to do in too little time. Ugh.

2. I am fickle. Sigh.

3. I cannot abide teachers who do not teach (doing nothing but playing cd’s every day in class does not count as teaching) and then lose their students’ papers and blame it on the students. GRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

 

The past 2 weeks… November 28, 2009

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The last couple weeks were absolutely insane! Production week was tiring, but went more quickly than I had expected. At the beginning of the week I was scared that there was no way we were going to be able to put the show together in time, but by Thursday I was fairly confident that it would be ok. Saturday’s show was best, although Sunday we had a bigger audience. It was almost packed! That was a nice sight.I went out with Nice Guy after the show on Saturday. I had a good time. Ok, I must admit that although he’s not particularly attractive physically, I am really starting to like him.

Tuesday was the school concerto competition. There were close to 30 competitors. Considering that I was the only singer amongst a bunch of pianists and instrumentalists, I doubt I made it into the finals. I’ll find out in a few days, though. Honestly, part of me hopes I didn’t make it… I’ve got enough stuff on my plate without another round of that competition.

There are only two weeks of classes left before finals, and I have a ton of work to do! I have a 20 page paper to write that I’ve done next to nothing on. Other than that it’s the usual… tests, assignments, small projects, a few more songs to learn and memorize. (Oh shit! I still have to memorize my music from the beginning of the semester that I haven’t looked at since September!)

And suddenly all holiday spirit is gone… I started wrapping a few Christmas presents today. Yesterday I decorated a bit. I put up the tree and set out some of my holiday candles. I have to wait for the rest until my roommates get back from up north. They spent Thanksgiving with their families and I’ve been home most of the break… I did spend the day with my family on Thanksgiving, but I chose to drive back home the same day. I guess I’m just a home body. I don’t get my apartment to myself very often, so when I do I like to enjoy it as much as possible.

Ugh! I guess I better go get to work on some homework. Either that or finish cleaning the apartment… I’ve done quite a bit of cleaning since Wednesday, but the kitchen and dining room are still disastrous.

 

St. Theresa’s Prayer November 20, 2009

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I’m sure I’ve read this before, but I just came across it again and really liked it:

St. Theresa’s Prayer:
May today there be peace within.
May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be.
May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith.
May you use those gifts that you have received and pass on the love that has been given to you.
May you be confident knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love.

This somehow seems very poignant right now. I am in the middle of production week for an opera scenes show. I’ve had a full week of classes and work plus long rehearsals every night this week. Last night was tech and tonight is our final dress rehearsal. We open tomorrow! We’re still ironing out problems with costumes and set changes, not to mention the problems that some of our singers are still having with the music. About two weeks ago I was asked to cover two parts for a girl who suddenly had a schedule conflict, so I’ve had to learn her music and staging in a hurry. Can we say stressed! And sleep deprived! :) Soon I will go get Starbucks for the second time today so that I have enough energy to make it through tonight’s rehearsal…

This morning Nice Guy bought me coffee after our German test. :) It was very sweet of him. I was really expecting to do poorly on that test, but it was surprisingly easy. The verbs that were asked just happened to be the five (out of about 30) that I actually knew, and the professor didn’t make me do the speaking part of the exam. I suppose I should stop psyching myself out about these tests.

Stupid is also in that class, but being his usual idiotic self, he didn’t show up today. In fact, he’s missed the past couple of weeks. He’s been at school, just not in that class. He knew about the test… I told him about it last week. I don’t understand some people’s mentality.

Hmm…  Now I have an hour and a half before rehearsal. To take a short nap or to go get Starbucks? Decisions…

 

More Quotes October 30, 2009

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“I may not be a first-class composer, but I am a first-class second-rate composer.” -Richard Strauss

“Here rests the honourable and virtuous youth Guntram, singer of love songs who by the symphonic orchestra of his own father was cruelly stricken down. Rest in Peace.” -Richard Strauss

“I won’t do it, I’m a decent woman.” -Marie Wittich, after the first rehearsal of Salome

“He never, I believe, conducted an opera without cuts, and was particularly proud when he could leave out a whole act of a modern opera.” -Richard Strauss on conductor Ernst von Schuch

“The aria, after all, is the soul of opera.” -Richard Straus

“The upshot of that except in the case of abnormally pitched voices, was displacement, fatigue, intolerable strain, shattering tremolo, and finally, not, as could have been wished, total annihilation, but the development of an unnatural trick of making an atrociously disagreeable noise and inflicting it on the public as Italian singing.” -George Bernard Shaw on the high tessituras Verdi set for his baritone parts.

“A verbal art like poetry is reflective; it stops to think. Music is immediate, it goes on to become.” -W. H. Auden

“We all drew on the comfort which is given out by the major works of Mozart, which is as real and material as the warmth given up by a glass of brandy.” -Rebecca West

“Since music is a language with some meaning at least for the immense majority of mankind, although only a tiny minority of people are capable of formulating a meaning in it, and since it is the only language with the contradictory attributes of being at once intelligible and untranslatable, the musical creator is a being comparable to the gods, and music itself the supreme mystery of the science of man, a mystery that all the various disciplines come up against and which holds the key to their progress.” -Claude Lévi-Strauss

“Music is a beautiful opiate, if you don’t take it too seriously.” -Henry Miller

“I always seem to have a vague feeling that he is a Satan among musicians, a fallen angel in the darkness who is perpetually seeking to fight his way back to happiness.” -Havelock Ellis on Beethoven

” A composer lets me hear a song that has always been shut up silent within me.” -Jean Genet

The man that hath no music in himself,
Nor is not moved with concord of sweet sounds,
Is fit for treasons, stratagems, and spoils.
The motions of his spirit are dull as night,
And his affections dark as Erebus.
Let no such man be trusted.

-Lorenzo in The Merchant of Venice by William Shakespeare
“I am fond of music I think because it is so amoral. Everything else is moral and I am after something that isn’t. I have always found moralizing intolerable.” -Hermann Hesse

“If anyone has conducted a Beethoven performance, and then doesn’t have to go to an osteopath, then there’s something wrong.” -Simon Rattle

“It is the stretched soul that makes music, and souls are stretched by the pull of opposites—opposite bents, tastes, yearnings, loyalties. Where there is no polarity—where energies flow smoothly in one direction—there will be much doing but no music.” -Eric Hoffer

“It is the only sensual pleasure without vice.” -Samuel Johnson on music

“All art constantly aspires towards the condition of music.” -Walter Pater

“Music is your own experience, your own thoughts, your wisdom. If you don’t live it, it won’t come out of your horn. They teach you there’s a boundary line to music. But, man, there’s no boundary line to art.” -Charlie Parker

“Music is spiritual. The music business is not.” -Van Morrison

“Music, in performance, is a type of sculpture. The air in the performance is sculpted into something.” -Frank Zappa

“Truly fertile Music, the only kind that will move us, that we shall truly appreciate, will be a Music conducive to Dream, which banishes all reason and analysis. One must not wish first to understand and then to feel. Art does not tolerate Reason.” -Albert Camus

“It is cruel, you know, that music should be so beautiful. It has the beauty of loneliness & of pain: of strength & freedom. The beauty of disappointment & never-satisfied love. The cruel beauty of nature, & everlasting beauty of monotony.” -Benjamin Britten while listening to the last song in Mahler’s song cycle Das Lied von der Erde

“Alas! all music jars when the soul’s out of tune.” -Altisidora in Don Quixote by Miguel de Cervantes

“All good music resembles something. Good music stirs by its mysterious resemblance to the objects and feelings which motivated it.” -Jean Cocteau

“Great music is that which penetrates the ear with facility and leaves the memory with difficulty. Magical music never leaves the memory.” -Sir Thomas Beecham

“There’s a basic rule which runs through all kinds of music, kind of an unwritten rule. I don’t know what it is. But I’ve got it.” -Ron Wood

“A nation creates music—the composer only arranges it.” -Mikhail Glinka

“A composer is a guy who goes around forcing his will on unsuspecting air molecules, often with the assistance of unsuspecting musicians.” -Frank Zappa

“Before I compose a piece, I walk around it several times, accompanied by myself.” -Erik Satie

“If music in general is an imitation of history, opera in particular is an imitation of human willfulness; it is rooted in the fact that we not only have feelings but insist upon having them at whatever cost to ourselves. . . . The quality common to all the great operatic roles, e.g., Don Giovanni, Norma, Lucia, Tristan, Isolde, Brünnhilde, is that each of them is a passionate and willful state of being. In real life they would all be bores, even Don Giovanni.” -W.H. Auden

“Nothing is capable of being well set to music that is not nonsense.” -Joseph Addison on Italian opera in 18th century England

“If I weren’t reasonably placid, I don’t think I could cope with this sort of life. To be a diva, you’ve got to be absolutely like a horse.” -Joan Sutherland

“I have always believed that opera is a planet where the muses work together, join hands and celebrate all the arts.” -Franco Zeffirelli

“Opera, next to Gothic architecture, is one of the strangest inventions of Western man. It could not have been foreseen by any logical process.” -Lord Kenneth Clark

“Singing has always seemed to me the most perfect means of expression. It is so spontaneous. And after singing, I think the violin. Since I cannot sing, I paint.” -Georgia O’Keeffe

“This is a fault common to all singers, that among their friends they will never sing when they are asked; unasked, they will never desist.” -Horace, Roman poet

Swans sing before they die – ’twere no bad thing
Did certain persons die before they sing.
-Samuel Taylor Coleridge

“To Strauss the composer, I take off my hat. To Strauss the man, I put it back on again.” -Toscanini after Richard Strauss accepted the presidency of the Nazi-established Reichsmusikkammer

“Dear Puccini, if this time you have not succeeded in hitting the nail squarely on the head, I will change my profession and sell salami!” -Giulio Ricordi (Puccini’s publisher) after seeing the score for La Bohème

“I am obliged to write an opera in fourteen days. I give you a week to do your share…But I warn you, we have a German prima donna, a tenor who stutters, a buffo with a voice like a goat, and a worthless French basso. Still, we must cover ourselves with glory.” -Gaetano Donizetti to his librettist, Felice Romani, about L’Elisir d’amore

“Handel is so great and so simple that no one but a professional musician is unable to understand him.”  -Samuel Butler

“That’s good. It gives the aria some life.” -Giacomo Puccini after the original Tosca, Maria Jeritza, accidentally rolled off a couch right before Vissi d’arte, forcing her to sing the entire aria lying on the floor

“Who sent you to me? God?” -Giacomo Puccini after hearing then-unknown Enrico Caruso sing Recondita armonia for the first time

“Next time I shall write a Mozart opera.” -Richard Strauss after the first performance of Elektra

“There are plenty of good pieces waiting to be written in C major.” -Arnold Schoenberg

“My friend, you’ve a fine turn of speed – you’d have made a good conductor.” -Charles Gounod to a cabbie who gave him a particularly good ride

“You only have time to clamber up a tree and hold on like grim death. Your hair is blown about, your face is streaked with blood, but when the storm dies off and recedes a little, you get down from your shelter, you shake yourself and you enjoy the pleasure of having escaped a great danger. The hurricane, my dear child, is Wagner or Wagnerism. It is fearsome but it passes on. The important thing is not to let yourself be carried away…” -Charles Gounod

“Look, mon petit, I’ve bested you. Faust has made 20,000 francs this week and your Le Cid only 16,000…suicide’s the only thing left for you now…” -Charles Gounod joking his friend Massenet

“Performance is a crucifixion.” -Charles Gounod

“…passionate and romantic in the extreme. The revelation of German music to him is like a bomb falling on a house and it’s possible that it may cause him serious damage.” -Fanny Hensel about Charles Gounod

“I will seize Fate by the throat; it shall certainly not bend and crush me completely.” -Ludwig von Beethoven

“When music fails to agree to the ear, to soothe the ear and the heart and the senses, then it had missed the point.” -Maria Callas

“When my enemies stop hissing, I shall know I’m slipping.” -Maria Callas

 

Quotes… the funny, the serious, and the offensive October 30, 2009

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No opera plot can be sensible, for people do not sing when they are feeling sensible. -W. H. Auden (1907 – 1973)

I don’t mind what language an opera is sung in so long as it is a language I don’t understand. -Sir Edward Appleton (1892 – 1965)

I can’t listen to that much Wagner. I start getting the urge to conquer Poland. -Woody Allen (1935 – )

A musicologist is a man who can read music but can’t hear it. -Sir Thomas Beecham (1879 – 1961)

Brass bands are all very well in their place – outdoors and several miles away. -Sir Thomas Beecham (1879 – 1961)

The way to write American music is simple. All you have to do is be an American and then write any kind of music you wish. -Virgil Thomson (1896 – 1989)

Music has charms to soothe the savage breast
To soften rocks, or bend a knotted oak.

William Congreve (1670 – 1729), The Mourning Bride, Act 1 Scene 1

When griping grief the heart doth wound,
and doleful dumps the mind opresses,
then music, with her silver sound,
with speedy help doth lend redress.

William Shakespeare (1564 – 1616)

The whole problem can be stated quite simply by asking, ‘Is there a meaning to music?’ My answer would be, ‘Yes.’ And ‘Can you state in so many words what the meaning is?’ My answer to that would be, ‘No.’ -Aaron Copland (1900 – 1990)

An intellectual snob is someone who can listen to the William Tell Overture and not think of The Lone Ranger. -Dan Rather (1931 – )

Opera is when a guy gets stabbed in the back and, instead of bleeding, he sings. -Ed Gardner

Wagner’s music is better than it sounds. -Edgar Wilson Nye (1850 – 1896), quoted in Mark Twain’s Autobiography, 1924

I don’t know anything about music. In my line you don’t have to. -Elvis Presley (1935 – 1977)

Music with dinner is an insult both to the cook and the violinist. -G. K. Chesterton (1874 – 1936)

Hell is full of musical amateurs: music is the brandy of the damned. -George Bernard Shaw (1856 – 1950), Man and Superman (1903) act 3

Music is essentially useless, as life is: but both have an ideal extension which lends utility to its conditions. -George Santayana (1863 – 1952), Life of Reason (1905) vol. 4, ch. 4

Military justice is to justice what military music is to music. -Groucho Marx (1890 – 1977)

Among all men on the earth bards have a share of honor and reverence, because the muse has taught them songs and loves the race of bards. -Homer (800 BC – 700 BC), The Odyssey

My music is best understood by children and animals. -Igor Stravinsky (1882 – 1971), In Observer 8 Oct. 1961

I think everyone should have a Beatles phase in their life. I think it’s part of growing up in the Western world. -Jadelr and Cristina Cordova, Chasing Windmills, 07-24-06

If you develop an ear for sounds that are musical it is like developing an ego. You begin to refuse sounds that are not musical and that way cut yourself off from a good deal of experience. -John Cage (1912 – 1992)

We are the music-makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams. -Arthur O’Shaughnessy (1844-1881)